Jon moved out....

Wow, those are simply words I never thought I would say. I never thought about walking into the bathroom and seeing All of his stuff gone. Walking into the closet, ALL of his clothes are gone. No men's underwear in the drawer and no men's socks. I've seen all these things for 18 years- I've even kept looking at them on days when I would have liked to throw them out the window!! But they were always there..... and now they're not. Strange.
Luckily for me, it's not permanent. He's accepted a job in Mississippi and has moved back to start. The kids and I are staying in North Carolina until we close on the house that we are currently under contract on. Things are ever changing in the Scribner Clan- some changes are just stranger than others- like it seeing your husbands underwear in the drawer it's been in for 18 years.
Pray for us during this time. It's going to be a tough 5 weeks but we got this!

Always an adventure....

I've been thinking for a long time about homeschooling.  Meghan does okay in school but she struggles. She just doesn't pick things up as quickly as some kids do so she falls behind relatively easily. Once she falls behind, she gets overwhelmed and the cycle starts. We've tried different things to help and none seem to work so we are trying homeschooling. Her and Connor's official last day as public school students was today and I'm nervous!

As the mom, I'm responsible for so much in their life but have always rested in the fact that their education was in the hands of their teachers.  I have always helped with homework and sometimes even in the classroom but I've never been the teacher before. I've been praying a lot about this and really looking for God to answer me. The funny thing is, I think He's answered me many times and I've been refusing to listen. I believe that God has really put it on my heart to teach my kids.... so here we go!

I don't know a lot about homeschooling so I have a lot to learn. I'm nervous that I won't educate my kids properly enough for them to be functional, contributing members of our society. But, I'm counting on the saying "If God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it!" I know there will be days that I need to be dragged to keep moving but I'm excited to start this new adventure!

New Year!

It's so hard to believe that 2015 is upon us already!! What a year! Connor spent lots of time at the doctor and spent time in 2 different casts so hoping for an easier year for him!

It's so easy to make resolutions at the New Year but yet it's so hard to keep them! Just 2 short years ago I was determined to lose weight, and I did.. I was also determined to keep it off.. Which I did not.

So here we are, start of a new year and a new determination to lose weight! Wish me luck!!

Money can't buy happiness

Robin Williams died today- he took his own life. This is so sad to me. How does one get into a position that suicide feels like the only option?? I've been sad.... Really sad.... Lost my baby sad..... But leaving this earth was never even contemplated. So- what kind of sad does it take to kill oneself?

On the outside, this man had everything. Money, "friends", family, a great career, lots of people that looked up to him YET he was still sad. This is profound to me because so many people say "if I just had more money, life would be easier..."  He had money- lots of money- but it didn't matter. 

Money doesn't buy happiness. Suicide doesn't solve problems. Depression is a serious disease. Mr. Williams is gone but his family is now left behind to be sad themselves.

Just a mom.... Really?

This has always been one of the most irritating statements I've heard about being a stay at home mom. "Just a mom" guy or girl has never had 3 kids aged 4 and under to go along with the two teenagers that lived there first. They've never cleaned puke out of a bed that has to be completely stripped, thrown in the washer and the bed now needs to be remade. They've never had the pleasure of watching their child ask Jesus into their lives all the while hoping that maybe you played a small roll in pointing them that direction. "Just a mom" is a very broad job description that includes nurse, counselor, teacher, cook, maid,taxi driver, referee, banker, the only reasonable person to take a teenage girl clothes shopping and the only reasonable one who walks out when said teenage girl says she won't buy anything cool. Three rules: no boobies, no butt cheeks, and no midriffs out for all to see. Which undoubtedly leads to "you're the worst mom ever. EVERY other mom buys their daughters this stuff.

I'm a proud "just a mom" and there are days when it's easy and there are days where I'm pretty sure I would like to run away. But in order to be "just a mom" there has to be "just a baby or 2 or 5" that makes being a mom worth everything!!

The proverbial roller coaster

We all make promises to ourselves. I have made many promises to myself that I have broken through the years- which is funny because I pride myself on keeping my promises to others.

Last year, I fought hard to get control of my weight and I was doing it! I had lost 64 pounds and was so proud! Well, I went to the doctor today and I have put 40 of those pounds back on. I promised myself I would never see 200 pounds again- well, I have said hello to the not so good friend that I thought I had bid a permanent farewell to.

What is it that makes weight loss successful? I have the excuses- thyroid function is non existent, I don't do change well and a big move occurred, blah, blah, blah!

Hopefully this year, I will find the secret. Funny thing is, I know where to find the secret- it's inside me- it's just hiding very well at the moment!

Already a year??

What a year this has been! I can't believe we've been in NC almost a whole year! The kids have liked it- Trevor has already started marching band practice for next year. He's going to be in high school- that's a little hard for this momma's heart but I'm hoping his experience is great. Jon still travels although he has been home for the past several weeks which I have enjoyed.  

Our house in Mississippi has finally sold and we close in 16 days! I'm so excited as this will be such a relief! 

This year, we also got to welcome a second grandson. Luke Alexander Mitchell was born on June 9 and weighed a whopping 10.2 lbs. seeing both him and his brother come into this world have truly been 2 highlights of my life!